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If there truly were reasons to live, they would be on a list somewhere...

Love is like malaria. Once you've had it, it doesn't go away, it just goes dormant.

Way to a woman's heart? A sense of humor. Way to her body? That's something else...
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Dec. 16th, 2007 @ 11:42 pm Great Quote
Threat Level Set To:: amusedamused
Shit I'm Listening To:: Blessid union of souls-Standing at the edge of the earth
I like Santa, because he's a fat bastard, works one day a year, is actually happy, and eats all the cookies he wants. He rewards the good, and punishes the guilty. Kind of like a vigilante, with gifts.

Foamy
No Christmas for You
www.illwillpress.com
What's Wrong With This One...
Oct. 19th, 2007 @ 06:30 pm Don't smoke and blog.
Threat Level Set To:: crushedcrushed
I miss her. I can't stop thinking of her. It's killing me. I can't sleep. The only thing that keeps her at bay is weed. I have to escape myself to escape her. God, i can't think. I can't listen to Lola without tearing up. Eternal sunshine of a beautiful mind. One night you'll never remember and you never will. the pain could go away. I could stop. Stop all this. all this shit. all this bullshit. Cat Stevens "Wild world" first verse. Beatles "Yesterday." The Darkness "I believe in a thing called love."

What the fuck is wrong with me? Goddammit, stop! Salt in the wound. Razors and needles. More cigarettes. More vodka. More weed. I want more to feel less. I want her back. I don't even want a chance. I want to talk. I want a four hour phone call. To sit and read books with an open phone line between us. to hear her criticize my singing. god, i suck at singing. i can't help it. they all sound so happy. Even sad, they're happy. How can i not sing? god, i'm a fucking mess. screens blurring. more typos. "typo's happen." I can't even cry without putting a joke in. I'm a fucking mess.

Eve 6 Open road song.

I don't need a girl don't need a friend cause my friend lonesome's unconditional
We're flying forever bored.
My pile shakes as i hit eighty on the open road this is an open road song.

The Exies Tired of you.

tired of breathing
tired of feeling
tired of looking at the past for meaning
tired of running
tired of searching
tired of trying
but im not tired of you

I've seen her once in like, six months. I loved it. i can't stand it. I can't go into walmart without thinking about her. I loved being with someone who gets me. I could make a joke and not worry about it being overboard or being foolish. she would come right back with one just like it. wishes. happy times.

God, i sound just like the pussy best friend on all those goddamned chick flicks. The ones who give up "so she can be happy". i gave up long before this happened. I didn't have the nerve for it before.

I screamed my pleas across the burning bridge in futility, for i knew then that none of my desires would come to pass. I wish i'd have had the courage to run that goddamned bridge, soles melting on burning wood, to ask her at her feet...Why? Why have I been forsaken? shall all of my days be passed trying to rub out the greatest time of my life purely for fear that, should i revisit that time, i will never escape?
Wandering through the funhouse, peering into transformed mirrors at every chance i ever had to try. try to make myself better. trying to be more suitable. It's already too goddamned late. I'm trapped, forced to relive all those times. Every single goddamned fuck-up that ever came to pass, it was always too goddamned late. I am a failure, who the fuck would every want me? who could? Why? What the fuck do i ever do? I'm always one step behind, too damned hesitant to catch the falling girl and take her away. Take her somewhere safe. pledge my life to her comfort and safety. tell her i'd rather die than let a tear ever cross that beautiful face.

Stop it make it go a way. please.

I don't want it anymore
I cry for you
i die for you
the pain in my heart is real

Blue October. Hate me.

then i fell down and yelled make it go away.

the promise of you.

Fleeting glimpses, flashes of bittersweet memories. pain, for what might have been. Hope. no. no hope. Hope hurts too much. Hope is what confines me here. Hope that something could go my way. I sit upon the moonlit bank of the river of life, grasping at the flotsam that drifts within my reach. I dare not go into that dark stretch of water, for fear of drowning. slipping deep on the mud of failure and hesitancy, going face first, dying, sucked into the undercurrent of hopelessness, searching for pleasure, finding only that i die gasping, drinking deep on the bitterness. The utter despair of the friend. The quiet, ever so quiet death of hope.
What's Wrong With This One...
Sep. 5th, 2007 @ 12:23 am Rides
Threat Level Set To:: blahblah
I am trying like hell to get back on the road. We (my father and i) are attempting to remove a 318 v8 motor out of a '72 Dodge Champion (it's like a big Winnebago) to replace the blown 225 slant six motor out of my '82 Dodge so that we may sell it to afford to bore the motor of my '98 Escort and rebuild it from the ground up. I can't wait to get the Escort back on the road. A four cylinder bored .40 over with performance injectors and a homemade cold air intake (and, if i can afford it, a decent small turbo). Little bastard would be quick as hell. Of course, the dodge wit a 318 and 4-10 running gears will absolutely scream, too.
What's Wrong With This One...
nuts
Aug. 9th, 2007 @ 03:10 am kick ass...
Threat Level Set To:: awakeawake
Shit I'm Listening To:: Finger Eleven - Thousand Mile Wish
Heard new kick ass song on movie Disturbia. It good. Don't know why type this way.

One Man Wrecking Machine
Guster

I built a time machine
Going to see the homecoming queen
Take her to the Christmas dance
Maybe now I'll get in her pants
Whatever

Back with my high school friends
Meeting where the train tracks end
Passin' 'round a skinny joint
Rollin up to look our point

I wanna pull it apart and put it back together
I wanna relive all my adolescent dreams
Inspired by true events on movie screens
I am a one man wrecking machine

Back in my parent's house
Back to the shouting out loud
One day you'll be a man
One day you'll understand

I wanna pull it apart and put it back together
I wanna relive all my adolescent dreams
Inspired by true events on movie screens
I am a one man wrecking machine

Inspired by true events on movie screens
I am a one man wrecking machine

Here in the present tense
Nothings making sense
Waiting for my moment to come
Everything's come undone

I tried to pull it apart and put it back together
No point in living in my adolescent dreams
Inspired by true events on movie screens
I am a one man wrecking machine

Inspired by true events on movie screens
I am a one man wrecking machine
What's Wrong With This One...
Aug. 1st, 2007 @ 04:20 am 7 weeks...
Threat Level Set To:: frustratedfrustrated
In seven weeks my life has gone down the pisser. I left Lowe's to work at Ingles. My truck threw a rod through the engine block. I bought a new car. I was fired from Ingles for lack of job performance improvement. My car broke a valve and ruined the entire block. I still owe my parents $1800 for my new car, and I can't find a job.

The only historical figure I know of that can feel as fucked as I am is Cleopatra, but I don't share her affinity with horses...

Exies - My Ordinary World

A life less ordinary
A second chance to believe
Spending my time wishing
Something would fall into reach
There's no use in pretending
I've wasted unspoken words
There's comfort in knowing
In knowing just what you're worth

Falling deeper
I'm falling deeper
So let me out
Let me out

Let me go now, something's missing
I just want my life to change
It all seems the same, i'm feeling caged
I'm tired of breaking down
Let me go now, i've learned my lessons
I'm so numb, i've passed the pain
It all seems the same, i need a change
From my ordinary world

I avoid myself when i can
But somehow i'm crawling underneath
Trying to break the habits
But it takes a stronger remedy
There's always pain in mending
The withdrawl of slowly coming clean
Have i the strength to face it
The darkest place inside of me

Falling deeper
I'm falling deeper
So let me out
Let me out

Let me go now, something's missing
I just want my life to change
It all seems the same, i'm feeling caged
I'm tired of breaking down
Let me go now, i've learned my lessons
I'm so numb, i've passed the pain
It all seems the same, i need a change
From my ordinary world

How long will i stand
In the waiting line
How long will i wait here
For my chance to shine
How long can i take this
I'm running out of time
Hoping by tomorrow
I won't feel the same

Let me go now, something's missing
I just want my life to change
It all seems the same, i'm feeling caged
I'm tired of breaking down
Let me go now, i've learned my lessons
I'm so numb, i've passed the pain
It all seems the same, i need a change
From my ordinary world


What's Wrong With This One...
nuts
Jun. 8th, 2007 @ 11:13 pm new song
Three Days Grace
Time of Dying

On the ground I lay
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Dead I fall asleep
Is this all a dream
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

On this bed I lay
Losing everything
I can see my life passing me by
Was it all too much
Or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

Sad but hopeful. God I'm fucked up...
What's Wrong With This One...
May. 28th, 2007 @ 04:44 pm (no subject)
Betwixt Her Getaway Sticks
From Autumn To Ashes


I'm not so-so Puncturing and cynical
side effects risk severing the umbilical
____ by every individual
Homesick wish list pathogenic populace you're dead weight some say guess
that's what you make of it but i got brass
fists think i found a catalyst but there's
no perfect its all hit and miss

Don't try to disinfect my personality
I like my edges rough, I like offending
Maybe I'm full of shit or full of envy
Maybe I'm growing up, I guess we'll just wait and see
One day you will stare at me but not judgmentally
An antiseptic sound is just what bores me
I'll show you just how to fake ________
But my opinion might be the enemy

I'm so surrounded by this serving policy
It gets the best of you, it got the best of me
It always piles up when i thought I was done
I feel like one duress I just don't have a gun
One day you will stare at me but not judgmentally
An antiseptic sound is just what bores me
I'll show you just how to fake _________
But my opinion might be the enemy
What's Wrong With This One...
Feb. 5th, 2007 @ 08:46 pm (no subject)
Threat Level Set To:: annoyedannoyed
Wow, I haven't posted in a long fucking time.

I'm hung up on myspace. I'm such a whore.

Three Days Grace

Pain

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
What's Wrong With This One...
Dec. 11th, 2006 @ 01:50 am I'm Posting a Chain Letter...
Threat Level Set To:: amusedamused
Shit I'm Listening To:: Hurt - Unkind
This is your final warning! Do not read further or the metaphysics that exist in and around all chain letters!

Since your still reading, I'll explain. This is a list of everything good about girls.

1. They will always smell good even if it's just shampoo.
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms .
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. The way her hand always finds yours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the caller ID after you just had a big fight.
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way that they kiss after you have had a fight.
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you".
18. Actually...Just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt.
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt (even though we don't admit it).
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...
26. The way the world works fine until you meet her, and the way it will always lack something without her.

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.

This chain started in 2002.

It is a love chain letter.

In an hour you are supposed to repost this.

NOW THE CONSEQUENCES!!!!!

The consequences are:

If you break the chain letter, you will have bad luck in future
relationships.

If you don't break the chain, then you will be a happy camper!!!

Congratulations!!

You have been chosen to participate in the LONGEST and the LUCKIEST chain
letter on the internet.

Once you read this letter, you must IMMEDIATELY (meaning within the hour)
post it with the title "Why do boys fall in love with girls????"
What's Wrong With This One...
Dec. 4th, 2006 @ 05:06 am Missing...
Threat Level Set To:: drunkdrunk
Shit I'm Listening To:: Black Stone Cherry - Hell Or High Water
It's eleven thirty, and I'm sitting on my computer, watching Superman Returns, drinking a Corona Light, listening to Lola by The Kinks. I'm hurting, pretty bad. I'm going to drop a suggestion at internetbumperstickers.com. "Friends don't let friends blog drunk." Ah, fuck you, it's funny to me. Am I the only one who thinks the Kinks kinda sound like the Scissor Sisters? I'm on my seventh Corona in about two hours, and I'm well past the point of fucked. Seven Coronas, twelve hundred mg's of tylenol, and twelve hundred mg's of ibuprofen, and I'm just one good poke away from killing or fucking something. Killing or fucking, that's all anyone ever associates, men with. It's not right. It's not fair. There is more to anyone than just what they seem. To be fair, killing and fucking do seem to be at the forefront of my mind most of the time, but I am a nineteen year old. I know one man I want to kill, and I have a list of people I want to fuck. Blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh... Merrr. Rar? LEMONS!

I'm going to regret this in the morning.









What's Wrong With This One...
gay
Nov. 15th, 2006 @ 04:25 am Badass...
Threat Level Set To:: accomplishedaccomplished
Shit I'm Listening To:: Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated
I rented Accepted and Employee Of The Month. Those are two incredibly amazing films. Just badass. That's about it. Oh yeah. I sold out. I am now on myspace. Check it out.
Myspace.com/bu_shit
What's Wrong With This One...
Nov. 13th, 2006 @ 11:53 pm Oh My Demons...
Threat Level Set To:: amusedamused
Shit I'm Listening To:: Gratitude - If Ever
That last post was depressing as hell. Damn. Anywho, I'm better now. I rented that movie "A Prairie Home Companion" on a whim. That was an amazing movie. There's a part right at the beginning where Woody Harrison is singing a dirty song while another guy plays guitar. the song goes:

"I used to work in Chicago,
At a convenience store.
I used to work in Chicago,
I did, but I don't anymore.
Lady walks in with some porcelain skin,
And I asked her what she came in for,
"Liquor" she said,
And lick her I did,
And I don't work there anymore."

Funny, ain't it?

What's Wrong With This One...
Oct. 30th, 2006 @ 03:20 am Arrrghhhhh...
Threat Level Set To:: gloomygloomy
God, I feel like I could gladly blow my fucking brains out if it were only possible for me to remain behind long enough to clean up the mess...\

Audioslave - Gasoline

House is haunted
I just want to go for a ride
Out an on
Before I set this room a light
Left alone forever and for crimes unclear
With my patience gone
Someone take me far from here

Burning that gasoline

New day yawning another day in solitaire
House is honest
Clearly more than I can bear
Drag me off
Before I set my world on fire
Out and gone the sun will never
Set tonight

Burning that gasoline

No what for's, only a can
Of red says danger on it
I have found another way
Burning that gasoline

Burning that gasoline


Train - Ordinary

Whose eyes am I behind?
I don't recognize anything that I see
Whose skin is this design?
I don't want this to be the way that you see me

I don't understand anything anymore
And this web that I'm tired of
Is taking me right up these walls
That I climb up to get to your story
It's anything but ordinary

And when the world is on its knees with me
It's fine
And when I come to the rescue
I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where's mine?
'Cause you're what I need so badly
But I'm anything but ordinary

Can you save me from this world of mine?
Before I get myself arrested with this expectation
You are the one, look what you've done
What have you done?
This is not some kind of joke, you're just a kid
You weren't ready for what you did, no . . .

And when the world is on its knees with me
It's fine
And when I come to the rescue
I do it for you time after time
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where's mine?
'Cause you're what I need so badly
But I'm anything but ordinary

I think I'm trying to save the world for you
You've been saving me too
We could just stay in and save each other

I'm anything but ordinary
I'm anything but ordinary

Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed

So quiet
Another wasted night,
The television steals the conversation
Exhale,
Another wasted breath,
Again it goes unnoticed.

Please tell me you're just feeling tired
Cause if it's more than that I feeel that I might break
Out of touch, out of time.
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed
Casue I can't read your rolling eyes
Out of touch, are we out of time?

Close lipped
Another goodnight kiss
Is robbed of all it's passion,
Your grip
Another time, is slack
It leaves me feeling empty.

I'll wait until tomorrow
Maybe you'll feel better then
Maybe we'll be better then
So what's another day
When I can't bear these nights of thoughts
Of going on without you
This mood of yours is temporary
It seems worth the wait
To see your smile again
Out of the corner of your eye
Wont be the only way you'll look at me then.

Someone kill me. Please.
What's Wrong With This One...
Oct. 24th, 2006 @ 02:09 am WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!
Threat Level Set To:: crushedcrushed
Shit I'm Listening To:: Anything Sad
Oy. Well, been long time. Didn't get that job I wanted. Still Stuck at lowe's. One of the few beams holding up my earthly existance, Takai, will shortly be moving to Florida. I'm ...crestfallen? No, that's the wrong word, I knew it was coming...I look forward to the next few weeks with a sense of trepidation and impending doom. Sounds sad, right? Ahh, I'm okay. Well, no, I'm not, But I will be. Eventually.

Black Stone Cherry - Tired Of The Rain

A gypsy woman told my fortune,
said I'll be rich someday
She said I'll be king and ruler,
in a land of misery and pain

I'm tired of the rain that keeps falling,
falling down on me
Please help me find some shelter,
from the pain that's pouring on me.

I once met a blind man who asked me,
to see things he couldn't see
He spoke of a land called Forever,
where you don't need eyes to see

I'm tired of the rain that keeps falling,
falling down on me
Please help me find some shelter,
from the pain that's pouring on me.

Ya know I'll be climbin' this mountain,
but it's too rocky and steep
When i get over this mountain,
ya know I'll be set free

I'm tired of the rain that keeps falling,
falling down on me
Please help me find some shelter,
from the pain that's pouring on me.

I'm tired of the rain that keeps falling,
falling down on me
Please help me find some shelter,
from the pain that's pouring on me.
What's Wrong With This One...
Sep. 17th, 2006 @ 11:09 pm 'Ello!
Threat Level Set To:: highhigh
Shit I'm Listening To:: LSG - Your Body
Howdy all. I'm applying for a new job. I like Lowe's, but they don't pay me enough, so I'm applying for a job at the Excelcior plant that's opening up in Rosman. They are apparently starting people off at 10 to 14 dollars an hour, so that would be a big jump. Add to that the fact that they're working people 12 hour shifts 6 days a week, and you'll see the massive jump in my income. I'll try to keep yall up to date, ok?





What's Wrong With This One...
Sep. 4th, 2006 @ 11:30 pm Been A While...
Threat Level Set To:: highhigh
Shit I'm Listening To:: Savage Soul - White Trash
Work is Hell. At least life isn't that bad. Could always be worse, I guess...

Somebody talk to me.

Please.

What's Wrong With This One...
Aug. 21st, 2006 @ 12:51 am I'm Still Here...
Threat Level Set To:: boredbored
Shit I'm Listening To:: Luther Vandross - Hello
And still crazy. Need new songs to listen to. Somebody send me the lyrics to a good song. Please.
What's Wrong With This One...
Aug. 16th, 2006 @ 01:06 pm Oh My God, I Just About Died...
Threat Level Set To:: excitedexcited
Shit I'm Listening To:: 36 Crazyfists - Slit Wrist Theory
Went up to Takai's to get my shirt and glasses. Late at night. Came down the curve past Cashs' Saw Mill. It wasn't there on the way up. There was a fucking 4 x 4 stretched across the yellow line. I yelled, swerved to the right, and dropped at least one tire in the ditch. Oh my God, I'm here at the house downing one of my brother's Sweet Tarts (for those that don't know, that's Sunkist, Everclear, and Kool Aid.)





What's Wrong With This One...
gay
Aug. 14th, 2006 @ 02:40 pm I'm Lonely...
Threat Level Set To:: draineddrained
Shit I'm Listening To:: Pick One..
Foreigner - I Want to Know What Love Is

I gotta take a little time, a little time to think things over
I better read between the lines, in case I need it when I'm older
Now this mountain I must climb, feels like the world upon my shoulders
Through the clouds I see Love shine, it keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've travelled so far, to change this lonely life

I want to know what Love is, I want You to show me
I want to feel what Love is, I know You can show me

I'm gonna take a little time, a little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide, it looks like Love has finally found me
In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've travelled so far, to change this lonely life

I want to know what Love is, I want You to show me
I want to feel what Love is, I know You can show me
I want to know what Love is, I want You to show me
I want to feel what Love is, I know You can show me

Let's talk about love - I want to know what Love is
The Love that you feel inside - I want You to show me
And I'm feeling so much Love - I want to feel what Love is
No, you just can't hide - I know You can show me

I want to know what Love is (let's talk about Love), I know You can show me
I want to feel what Love is I wanna feel it too, and I know and I know
I know You can show me
Show me Love is real, yeah - I want to know what Love is...


Joe Nichols - My Old Friend The Blues

Just when every ray of hope was gone
I should have known that you would come along
I can't believe I ever doubted you
My old friend the blues

Another lonely night, a nameless town
If sleep don't take me first, you'll come around
I know I can always count on you
My old friend the blues

Lovers leave and friends will let you down
But you're the only sure thing that I've found
No matter what I do, I'll never lose
My old friend the blues

Lovers leave and friends will let you down
But you're the only sure thing that I've found
No matter what I do I'll never lose
My old friend the blues
Just let me hide my weary heart in you
My old friend the blues


Frickin' A - Just Friends

Here I go, Driving by your house
Might as well throw some rocks at your window
Yeah But you don't seem to care, or maybe your not there
Probably out with someone else tryin' to keep in on the down low

Just so you know
I'm not taking this so well
Since I've been alone
I've learned how to...

Cuss you out in Japanese
Organize my dvd's
Play solitaire again...and I
Hear that your doing fine
Smiling all the time
But you really rub it in...when you say you're over me
And you wanna be...just friends

Hey what about the promise that you made to me
That we'd always be together and you'd be there
Everyday I wake up
I found a box of notes you wrote
each one signed with x and o's
And b.s. - like I love you we're never gonna brake up

Just so you know
I'm not taking this so well
Now that I'm alone
I've had time to...

Cuss you out in Japanese
Organize my dvd's
Smash my sister's violin...and I
Hear that your doing fine
Smiling all the time
But you really rub it in...when you say you're over me
And you wanna be...just friends

Here I go again...
I really miss you now it's time to

Beg pretty please I'm
Pouring on the cheese
My heart may never mend
And I've punched holes in all my walls
Closed down all the malls
Smashed my sisters violin...and I
Hung our picture by the bed
You're still living in my head
At least I can pretend...that you're not over me
Cause I can't be...Just Friends

Eels - My Beloved Monster

My beloved monster and me
We go everywhere together
Wearing a raincoat that has four sleeves
Gets us through all kinds of weather

She will always be the only thing
That comes between me and the awful sting
That comes from living in a world that's so damn mean

My beloved monster is tough
If she wants she will disrobe you
But if you lay her down for a kiss
Her little heart it could explode

She will always be the only thing
That comes between me and the awful sting
That comes from living in a world that's so damn
Mean

La la la la la la la la
La la la la la la


James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
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Aug. 12th, 2006 @ 10:18 am (no subject)
Threat Level Set To:: contentcontent
Shit I'm Listening To:: Buckcherry - Crazy Bitch
Got my truck fixed. Went and partied. Fun. Bought the third and final book of the Bartimaeus Trilogy. It's great.





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